Magical Realism

Many folks upon hearing they have a serious diagnosis of any kind, go immediately in one of a few different directions. Either they hunker down to being realistic at all costs, go look up their prognosis on actuary charts and prepare for the worst. Or  they might try denial, LALALALA. Perhaps they decide to “Fight Fight Fight – never…

Is There Anybody Out There?

Hello! Hello! Hello! Happy Year of the Fire Monkey! And apparently at our house this is also the Year of the “White-odd-eyed-three-legged-deaf” cat! And Happy Year of the “Scruffy-green-eyed-post-barncat-RatBag” Too! The darkness is lifting around here. Spring is pushing up daffodils, pushing out pussy willow buds, and inspiring song sparrows to cut loose. I’m not sure…

Harmony

We just got back from a blessed adventure. Wednesday through Friday we attended a family retreat at Harmony Hill, a beautiful healing center near Hood Canal, a little more that 3 hours north east of Astoria.  This has been a wonderful week.  We all feel so lucky to have been able to attend the retreat. To be together- separate from…

Gift Economy

Our beloved and spoiled chickens lay the most beautiful eggs. Each time we travel to appointments with doctors and healers we try to bring them a dozen eggs. It is an effort to bring the transactions with my doctors closer to the gift economy- mutual benefit is the goal.  I hope also that for my Portland doctors,…

The Cure for Cowbirds

Yesterday on my walk with Joe, we saw one of the little yellow warblers flitting amongst the branches of a blooming scotch broom. They are so beautiful, with a quick cheerfulness and a loopy small-bird flight pattern – as if they are always skipping or dancing.  We also happened upon a courtship routine of a few brown-headed…

Amazing Grace.

Today we traveled into Portland to have my post surgery follow up appointment with Dr. de LaMelena, and to have my drains removed.  I got some news that makes my heart sing. The pathology report shows a Pathologically Complete Response. – which means they could find NO cancer-ing cells – in neither my removed breast tissue nor the…

Released from the hospital.

I am recovering nicely from the surgery, we had excellent care while there. The benefits of the paravertabral block include less pain post surgery- which means I have been comfortable. I was released today to go home with my family. Dr. De la Melena suggested we stay in Portland tonight so we are at my…

Hell Yeah or No

Here is a bit of a modern proverb on how to negotiate our too busy lives by Derek Sivers, founder of CD Baby!.  It is only 1 minute long and definitely worth watching if you ever find yourself saying Yes to more than you can fit on your plate. http://vimeo.com/25496723   Since my diagnosis many people have offered…

Thank you for letting me know.

One thing is clear. If I am going to live the rest of my life without any of my cells reverting to the cancer-ing lifestyle, I need to transform, or perhaps to metamorphose is the better term? After I am done transmuting poisons, and healing from surgery, and recovering from any radiation treatments, my primary…

Those who have gone before.

Today my friend Patty Adelsberger would have been 44 years old. She died from ovarian cancer in 2010, the year we turned 40, and just a few years after her beloved mother died of the same disease.  I met her at the Cambell Club Student Coop in Eugene the day I moved to Oregon in September 1990….

Grateful

Wow. Thank you to everyone who attended last night – we were surprised to see so many venture out in the weather.  What a beautiful event. Grace Episcopal is a gorgeous church, Andrew filled the sanctuary with sweet notes, and Rex held the audience spellbound with the fascinating story of Mozart.  We snuck in at…