“When sorrows come…”

“There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, Than are dreamt of in your philosophy.”  Hamlet to Horatio These last weeks I have been playing a minor character in the last production in the life of my friend Meg.  She is dying from late stage breast cancer.  I have written before about my views of…

On the other hand . . .

When I look down at my right hand, I see the progression of my treatments visually etched into my nails. Stripes mark the 3-week intervals. The discolored areas that separated from the nail bed, due to the toxins in the yew-based chemo, are now nearly grown out, while the pale stripes marking the Herceptin continue. I…

You say Placebo, and I say Nocebo.

pla·ce·bo (pləˈsēbō) a. A substance containing no medication and prescribed or given to reinforce a patient’s expectation to get well. b. An inactive substance or preparation used as a control in an experiment or test to determine the effectiveness of a medicinal drug. no·ce·bo (nəˈsēbō) A detrimental effect on health produced by psychological or psychosomatic…

On being a modified radical.

By many accounts I was a radical before any of this cancer-ing journey began – starting a worker cooperative is enough for that title.  Plus I believe in lots of “radical” notions, like universal health care, environmental stewardship, self education and homebirth. I believe in a loving creative god, the consciousness of the entire universe, which doesn’t smite…

Thank you for letting me know.

One thing is clear. If I am going to live the rest of my life without any of my cells reverting to the cancer-ing lifestyle, I need to transform, or perhaps to metamorphose is the better term? After I am done transmuting poisons, and healing from surgery, and recovering from any radiation treatments, my primary…

Tree Baths

The last week has been so very beautiful. I hope that all of you have been soaking up sun or taking tree baths. (Tree baths are a Japanese idea of hanging out with trees as a healing modality – basically walking amongst trees breathing the air made by trees.)  A year ago this week, the Family Daire loaded…

“When I grow up I want to be an Old Woman”

This last treatment seems to be a doozy. My blood counts, for red, white and platelets, were predictably at there lowest point when I went in for my last chemo treatment on the 1st. Because I am due for surgery on April 28th, Dr. Anderson scheduled a nuelesta shot for me- adding a whole new…

Timeline

Here is a treatment timeline with details of my cancering treatments December 2013- December 2014, with links to posts written about the events. Originally it was intended to be a place for family and friends to get a quick update. At this point I hope it may serve to help others get a glimpse into of what…